I am immensely pleased with myself to finally have a new website.blog.
Why?
Well, because it means I am doing something new.
What a miracle.
It might not seem like a big deal to most people but I cherished my other website and blog – I HELD ON FOR DEAR LIFE – even though it looked crappy, you had to go to 2 URL’s, and there wasn’t a lot of features.
This is the human condition. We hang on, even when it’s outdated and not working. We do this with relationships and work and everything in between. We accept mediocrity. I stayed with that that blog not because I liked it so much but because I didn’t have to ask for help. I knew in getting a new blog, I would need to ask for help. I hate asking for help. But I knew I couldn’t do it on my own.
So I dragged my feet.
When the choices are:
1. Ask for help
2. Let things stay the same
I usually choose Door #2. My choice is to keep things the same, even when it’s not working. I’m stubborn in that way. I like comfort. I do not like my home environment to be disrupted. Taurus the Bull.
So, it feels great to actually ask some people for help. To express my vision and not be ashamed. To let things be new. Bastiaan built the banner. Francisco moved everything over to a new server. These guys amaze me.
In the transition, the whole website came down, along with every post. I freaked for a minute … but look! It’s almost entirely restored.
Those guys didn’t freak. They knew what they were doing. I freaked. But this is where TRUST IN YOUR BROTHER is an amazing practice.
There will be more changes.
This is good reminder for me to let things be new. I always think that change will result in things getting worse, not better.
A Course in Miracles says the reason you are afraid of change is because the first change introduced into the mind is separation from God, and ever since then you are terrified of change. You think all change will result in descent, making things worse not better. It’s not something you may be aware of consciously, but it’s there in your mind. The memory that your first change led to you being separate from everything, lonely and fearful. A total screw up, that seemingly could not be undone.
But change is good. The mistake has been corrected. We are not separate from God. We are not separate from each other. We are safe to take chances. To be courageous. To try a new route.
I’m taking baby steps, but I’m learning. I’m trying. I’m stepping into the unknown, even though I’m afraid and resisting change. Susan Jeffers says “Feel the fear and do it anyway!”
What changes are you allowing into your life today?
Lisa… I love the new look! To tell the truth, it’s been awhile since I’ve visited – but I’m here now – and it feels great. Nice job.
To answer your question – Isn’t it the Course that says that “A universal theology is impossible, but not a universal experience” or something to that effect? That’s one of the biggest changes that I’m making. For a long time, I searched for that one true religion/philosophy/theology that was it, A #1, the ultimate truth. I’m finally starting to see that the Big Book was right all along when it says that it was inside us all along.
Thanks!
Hello! I just found you through a comment that you left on Adversity University blog. I just wrote a Thanksgiving post on Miracles. I’d be very interested in your Course in Miracles in January.
I’m going to bookmark you and follow your journey. Nice to meet you!
Hi sweetheart! I am sooo proud of you!
See I TOLD you: BESTSELLER….:)
The new site looks very GOOD!
My warmest thoughts to you, -see you tomorrow.