My phone was shut off this afternoon for non-payment and I don’t know what anything is for. I’m back in the 1800′s now, before telephones.
What a trip. I haven’t worked a “job” since July in the usual sense of a job that pays green paper strips. This was a conscious decision. I decided I wanted to write a book to inspire people. I made a conscious decision to follow Jesus. Before July I had jobs – waitressing, working in a factory – jobs that I took to pay the bills, to sustain myself here in the world … but … there came a day this summer when I couldn’t see the point of that anymore. Don’t I trust Jesus?? I know, I know. It seems drastic. And probably a little stupid also.
But in my mind it was entirely rational … Lesson 132 says “Loose the world” so I did. Jesus says: Love and Follow Me and Give everything away, so that’s what I did.
Physically took off all the heavy garments.
One day I just wasn’t afraid anymore. I decided I wasn’t going to worry where my next meal came from, or what I should wear, or what my needs were. Suddenly it become entirely logical to “put down my fishing nets” and follow Jesus as his disciple. I am here as a light in the world.
The Year of Living Biblically by Lisa Natoli.
How awesome.
Jonathan Fields over at Awake at the Wheel wrote a great blog post yesterday about “the passive income scam” how people want to quit their day jobs and make money easily. He says “passive income” is a big scam, and he’s absolutely right.
There is only one way to become rich or great and that’s to work at it really hard. You can only achieve a goal by going the full distance and putting your whole heart into it. It’s the only way. If you feel passionate about something, or if you want to make a difference in the world, then you will do it for the love of it … and not for the money. I feel passionate about A Course in Miracles. I write and teach because it’s what I’m designed to do. It’s my purpose. It’s my function to be happy. The only time I feel totally alive is when I am being helpful. I feel “off” when I don’t give of myself.
I spent my whole life searching for what I was supposed to be doing with my life, and having finally found it, you think I’m going to give it up just because there’s not a steady paycheck behind it?? Not a chance. I’ve been looking my whole life for meaning. I came for this and herein lies all my joy and freedom. I’ve found my place in life, the one thing that makes me happy … making you happy.
I started this blog 3 years ago because of my deep desire to know God. In the beginning, it was like a puzzle I was trying to solve. It was my secret. I didn’t tell anyone I was writing. I simply wanted to know that A Course in Miracles was true … and writing every day was like a big science project with me looking at every angle and seeing where there was a need for healing in my mind. It was like trying to put the pieces together. Figure out which pieces where missing. Looking for any places where I was compromising the message, or not following instructions.
**WARNING TO READER: this does NOT mean you should quit your job. This simply was my path, and I’m describing what has happened to me. It’s been 3 years in the making. This post is in NO WAY, SHAPE, or FORM instruction about what anyone else should do. I’m just telling you what happened to me.
So slowly, over time, I’ve been putting my body, mind & soul into the water, taking the plunge. Getting closer to God. It’s been baby steps. One toe in. Ooooooh, that’s cold. Ouch, that hurts. And one step back onto dry land.
One month passes. Two months pass. Then one toe in again. Take a risk. Okay, that’s not so bad. Two toes in. Okay, that’s a little much. Back on dry land.
And slowly over 3 years, I’ve lost much of my fear. I’ve got almost my entire body in the lake of truth now. It can still be scary – I have days when I wonder WHAT AM I DOING – but most days I feel like I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be, doing exactly what I am doing. It feels good. Refreshing. Liberating. Clear.
It’s total freedom to be out in the middle of the lake … free at last.
I’m standing in the NOW.
I have no idea what will happen next. I’m here only to be truly helpful. I am here to demonstrate how much God loves us. He’s right here. It’s marvelous.
What will happen next? I HAVE NO IDEA, but it’s gonna be good.
I love you.
If you need help, or have a question, I would love to hear from you.
And if you feel like giving, here is the magic button:
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You should follow your heart for God. I’d like to exchange links and support each others blog in spreading the gospel. I admire your conviction. I hope and pray your book takes off.
Blessings,
Lance
http://www.lancessoulsearching.com
jgargus2@comcast.net
So, how are you in daily service? I am very curious to see how you have been called to express the divine.