I love you.
These early lessons are a doozy.
First and foremost, A Course in Miracle is about responsibility. Total absolute responsibility that I am the cause of everything. In this sense, I become totally aware. I don’t ignore anything. I am responsible for what I see. So if a diaper needs changing, I change it. Happily. A Course in Miracles is about a change of mind. About learning to see everything differently. Before awakening, chop wood, carry water. After awakening, chop wood, carry water.
But in God’s grace, you will feel joyful, happy and at peace. Nothing will disturb you. Your husband could say anything, and you would be entirely unaffected. Your daughter will be kicking you and instead you will see it as love and start to play with her. You will respond differently, with love in your heart. This doesn’t mean you become super sweet, turning into nice nice, dancing around the good ship Lollipop.
Nice is an illusion, just as much as evil is. Nice is a false emotion. It is controlling, a way to get your needs taken care of.
I speak from deep deep experience on this one. I always thought being on God’s path was about being sweet and nice. Now I know that being AWAKE means being myself: my passionate joyful (and sometimes explosive!) self. I am perfect as God created me.
Sometimes I scream. Sometimes I walk out of a situation, and slam the door behind me (not so often anymore, but I think it looks great with high heels and a cute bag, the whole brunette bombshell thing, like i should win an Academy award for my performance .. haha)
life has become a fun game I play. I get to be myself.
So, really, you get to choose who you want to be, and what you want to be like. Obviously, you have in you a memory of a perfect idea of who you are at your best. This is God’s Will for you.
Did you buy my book? Gorgeous for God. I think it would be really fun for you, and give you some great ideas and reminders when you get stuck.
Just be gentle with yourself. A Course in Miracles can be completely disruptive in the beginning. It’s dismantles the current thought system, which is why it’s great to do this together.
I hope this helps.
Love, lisa
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All of this helps so much, I feel less alone and less in the dark and I have hope that now that I am doing the work and taking this risk that I will make the leap from dark to Light in The Holy Instant. I am feeling pissed off today, and hating my landlady and hating myself more because I think that this is about her and it is not. I think I am getting what is being offered me here and that is not necessary, I just need to keep going. I want to see things differently, above all else. Nothing I have tried works and I remain in hell… waiting. Now what? I am powerless. I find the old more comfortable and safe.. It is known at least, familiar. I cannot change my self. I just keep giving over my thoughts, there is a pull to go back… to what …. nothing, thankGod. Tomorrow is a new beginning…
Love Jayme
WEll I’m still waiting for Amazon to deliver Gorgeous for God to me. Must be cause I live in Europe and it is not stocked in Europe maybe?
But strange things are happening to me. This morning I didn’t know if I was still in my sleep dream when i woke up!
And then I seem to be able to see what people are feeling when I look at them. It’s like I can interpret everything they have done on an emotional level up until now thats why they are where they are if you know what I mean. But and this is a huge BUT I find myself being judgemental and then I have to judge myself for judging. Phew. Instead of just loving them and forgiving them. Because I do want to be forgiven also.
What an adventure this is!