QUESTION FROM A READER:
Lisa,
I am writing on the premise that we are kind of going along together. So I will ask, and then listen to your take on this subject. I also ask assuming from your writing that you have felt the rage and subsequent depression strongly.
Any thoughts on being “ok” with feeling these emotions when they come up before I am ready to forgive. Because sooner or later I will forgive (sooner of course I hope) but sometimes the emotion is just too strong, or it sneaks up on me. I’ll listen. And you don’t have to answer if you don’t want.
MY RESPONSE:
Yes. We are going along together and I am grateful for all questions.
Yes. I’ve known incredible rage and deep futility along with depression. Don’t forget those emotions ARE THE JOURNEY. You are allowing yourself to be “undone”. The awakening process is simply letting all that was buried deep in your mind and cells now come to the surface. You look at it. Acknowledge it. And give it to the Holy Spirit, recognizing it’s unreality. That’s true forgiveness. You are being loosened from hell. So yes, it’s gonna hurt a little. and as you do not give in to being pulled by gravity to form anymore, all those emotions which were buried for so long start bubbling to the surface and are felt more deeply than ever before.
my experience is that BEFORE THE COURSE I had a very high threshold for pain, and now WITH THE COURSE I have a low tolerance. i feel everything deeply.
The fastest way for it to dissolve is: DON’T NAME IT.
Just give it to the Holy Spirit, saying: Thank you. Take this. I don’t need it. I am whole and perfect as God created me.
Let rage be intense energy, and then you will be able to accept it.
It might even become a little fun. Who knows?!
Accept everything exactly as it is.
When things are falling apart, be in a state of gratitude.
When you are depressed, give thanks for the experience.
Don’t name anything cause that just makes it solid.
realize that the idea of rage must be based on something you learned from before this moment, otherwise how could you name it?
it’s just energy.
let everything be exactly as it is, and have a willingness to pass through all energies – the ones that feel comfortable along with the ones that feel uncomfortable. the “bad” along with the “good”. The ‘happy” along with the “sad.”
do you see how we name everything?
I find that any discomfort that I am experiencing is only uncomfortable because it is unfamiliar. It is a new frequency of energy. Recognizing it in this way, it doesn’t bother me so much. I just say: THANK YOU GOD THAT I AM HAVING A NEW EXPERIENCE.
and then it passes. Sometimes it disappears immediately. Sometimes it takes longer, but it doesn’t matter anymore.
I think i wrote in my book about the time my head was paralyzed for a week. ?? Did you read it? This past year I became paralyzed (literally) and it was the most intense pain i have ever experienced, but i kept “not naming it” and trusting that whatever was happening was happening perfectly, and then as quickly as it came on, it disappeared.
I hope this is helpful.
just stay in a state of acceptance and gratitude. That’s my advice.
Love, lisa
Facebook comments:
That is an excellent description, and very helpful. I get into a place of being frustrated with myself when I fall into the pits and feelings. It’s good to have yet another reason not to be mean to myself! HA!
I love this post… a light has gone on for me followed by a flood of gratitude.
One of the most valuable things for me is the feeling that we are “going along together,” I find that to be very helpful….For the first time since the 1980′s I find myself in a situation where there is no-one around me, physically, interested in the Course. ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
“my experience is that BEFORE THE COURSE I had a very high threshold for pain, and now WITH THE COURSE I have a low tolerance. i feel everything deeply.”
thank you so much for this comment…I can’t express how many pieces fell into place when I read this…….. I have been punishing myself for not being able to tolerate a single loveless thought, the pain of it is extraordinary. I can take off the hair shirt and put away the lash.
May Blessings overflow your cup.
Holy cow, Lisa… I have read this several times and each time it brings more Light.. and if that isn’t enough I read Don Juan and I will never be the same after this day or choose to just let things pass without being present with them.. as my last moment… wow puts a whole new spin on my day…doing what ever it is with total commitment… wow..
I love you and thankyou so much for your emails of love and encouragement… Jayme