My friend Al over at View from a Mountaintop reminded me of a great thing I had forgotten:
Don Juan had another one that has stuck with me over the years. “Controlled Folly.” “Do what you do impeccably, as if it really means something, even though you know it means absolutely nothing.”
Oh my God. I love that.
Exactly. The other day I wrote that I go through waves and it’s the truth. I find myself often stuck between “going for something entirely (a worldly goal)” and “doing nothing, remembering the truth, knowing that my goal is God and it’s accomplished.”
When given the choice between money and going home, I choose going home.
I choose God.
And that’s probably the reason I never have any money.
A Course in Miracles says this path is not hard but it is different.
BOY IS THAT THE TRUTH.
My life, and the way I live it, is the OPPOSITE of everything I ever imagined for myself. It’s not difficult, but it is different.
I have no money but I am happy, healthy, at peace, joyful, creative, full of love, and a constant source of light. I laugh all day long. Nothing bothers me. Everything makes me happy.
Maybe this is how it’s supposed to work? I’m leaving the world behind and taking my rightful place in Heaven.
I only want to do the work that God has sent me here to do and then leave. Being in a body is not comfortable for me. I’m grateful to serve but I’m an alien here. I’m One with the universe – Mind, Spirit – One with all things and yet I find myself in a condition of separation. It’s beyond bizarre.
Does anyone else realize this world is not where you belong?
Does anyone else feel uncomfortable here?
Human beings are creatures of ADAPTATION.
We learn to adapt here. To get along in separation. To live in a body. To live with loneliness, boredom, sadness, sickness and depression.
What a place to be.
I dedicate my mind to truth because I want to go home. I want to end this dream of separation for everyone. I don’t want to delay and linger in time, procrastinating in illusions, when “every 5 minutes spent remembering the truth saves 1000 years, and 1000 minds awaken.”
This is the work I do, and unfortunately, it doesn’t pay money in dollars.
So when Al wrote that to me about “controlled folly”, it’s like a lightbulb when off in my head:
“Do what you do impeccably, as if it really means something, even though you know it means absolutely nothing.”
What do I love to do? I love to write and inspire people. I love to make people happy. I love to cook for friends and family.
What do I really want? I want to be active. I want to have money to pay my bills and do cool things. I want to travel. I want to inspire people to be their true self and get over their addictions. I want to be out in the world, a visible force, giving light to everything I see.
I watched Oprah’s show on Friday about Oprah’s Big Give and I was completely inspired and amazed by the contestants. I want to do what they do: to be out among people, giving of myself.
I want to be truly helpful.
I WANT TO DO IT IMPECCABLY, AS IF IT MEANS SOMETHING, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW IT MEANS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
Lord, hear my prayer.
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YES, YES and YES!
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Thanks for Als address, I popped over for a visit and had a great time.
Al is awesome. His blog is my favorite thing. i crack up so hard over there. He is hilarious, without even trying.
Dear Lisa, Hi and I am with you as an Alien sister… I never felt like I belonged here… does anyone truly or are they faking it.. I have an update on the kitty story, I may need that miracle, he is just being himself we need to find enough room and brothers to let him express himself all over the place… he is like someone shoots him out of a cannon every 5 seconds… wonderful to watch… I love him to bits and I did have my moments … love Jayme