this post really has opened me up to what has been occuring in me for some years now…

I see that the difficulties and hardship was being undone in God and that by not dragging my victim story and all the woe – is -me stuff into my daily life I was demonstrating something greater than me.

At one point… facing homelessness again… I said to my friends ” Don’t rescue me… I have closed off all my escape routes” meaning all the ways I used to manipulate others to by into poor me.

I was done.

There was a God or there was no God.

And in that commitment … He came.

And one of my friends went to her church group and said … I have this friend who live totally on faith.

That is what God wants from me.

The end of ‘oh how the world done me wrong’ and do you want to look into the long black bag I drag behind me… let me tell you how it has been hell for me…

Pride…

wow there it is… the one I have been facing now… or more correctly speaking… false pride…

yep, it goes before the fall alright…

Thank you for all those ‘other’ people who had so much pride that I could finally see it in me and let it go…now…

Thank you, God.
I love you
Thank you Jesus.
I love you.
Thank you, Lisa
I love you.

gem.