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    Lesson 282

    October 8th, 2008

    I will not be afraid of love today.

    If I could realize but this today, salvation would be reached for all the world.

    This the decision not to be insane, and to accept myself as God Himself, my Father and my Source, created me. This the determination not to be asleep in dreams of death, while truth remains forever living in the joy of love. And this the choice to recognize the Self Whom God created as the Son He loves, and Who remains my one Identity.

    I will not be afraid of love today.

    Most people pray for love to come to them, while at the same time they are BITTERLY AFRAID of it.

    Most people don’t even know they are afraid. They keep looking for the ideal partner. They keep thinking that love is “out there” somewhere for them.

    But love is not out there. It’s in you.

    If there is a lack of love in your life, then there is only ONE THING TO DO: Look at the source of the problem - THE FEAR THAT IS IN YOU.

    Here’s the human condition:

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    You cannot attract love when you are in fear. All you attract is more fear.

    I am an expert in this department. Back in the 90s, I was in love with a man who broke my heart into a million pieces. We lived together for four years and I thought we would live happily every after. The first year was a fairy tale, the next two years were slow deterioration, and the fourth and final year I was living, quite literally, in hell, with him in the bed beside me.

    I kept thinking things would improve, if only I was patient, perfect and beautiful.

    Instead it kept getting worse and worse and worse, until finally one day I couldn’t take another minute and I packed my bags and left.

    You would think it would be over then, right? That I was free to move on and find a wonderful relationship with someone who treated me like a princess, right? Wrong.

    I was so shattered that I put up a cement wall around me, and put up a sign saying “Closed for business, indefinitely.”

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    Of course, when you are in the midst of this kind of thinking, it’s never quite so obvious that this is what you’re doing. It’s easier to say “There are no good men (or women) around.”

    Here’s the thing: THERE ARE TONS OF GREAT MEN AND WOMEN EVERYWHERE! Everyone you meet is the perfect partner.

    I laugh like crazy when I hear people say there are no good people in the world anymore. What insanity! I meet extraordinary spectacular individuals every single day of my life. Believe me. If you are not meeting great people every single day, it is because you are afraid of love.

    You should be falling in love every single day. There are opportunities everywhere.

    You think you can protect yourself from love. You put up all sorts of walls. You create all sorts of rules of behavior. You think you can control love. You think you can keep yourself safe from getting hurt.

    AND THIS IS WHAT HELL IS.

    All your rules are what hell is.

    What is needed is for you to look at the source of the problem: fear.

    Once I realized that I was terrified of love, a miraculous thing happened: the wall started coming down. I started to become softer, more open, more receptive.

    Sure, yes, I have opened myself up to getting hurt again. Sure, there are scrapes and bruises.

    But it’s okay. The strength of God is always there for me.

    Opening your heart is 100% times better than hiding behind the wall.

    I will not be afraid of love today.

    “The most valuable possession you can own is an open heart.” - Carlos Santana

    Open Your Heart by Ahmed Rabea.


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