Father, my freedom is in You alone.
The house I am now living in is big and beautiful and quiet.
It’s what I always wanted – a big house with tons of guests rooms for friends and family, a place of peace, joy and happiness – and yet it’s strange to be here. It’s immense how quickly the scenery changed.
I always wanted a big house and I thought it would be years down the road. You know, first you need a job, then you need money, probably a huge bank loan, then the whole process of physically moving in, getting a UHaul truck, buying furniture, contacting the gas, electric, and telephone companies, etc.
But it didn’t happen that way at all. One day I was penniless without a job, and then next day I’m living in a 5-bedroom house that is heated, warm, and filled with love.
I’m wandering around the rooms, feeling isolated. This place is huge. It’s interesting to observe myself walking around the house, trying to find peace.
Last night I noticed how restless I am. I can’t sit still. I can’t get a proper internet connection (it disconnects within 3 minutes) so I am face-to-face with myself. There’s nowhere to go! There’s no distractions! I don’t watch tv so I don’t have that. I try to read a book and immediately I’m walking around, rearranging the furniture, opening the fridge but there is nothing to rearrange (as everything is perfect here) and I’m not hungry so I’m just opening and closing the fridge door looking for something.
It’s so funny when you begin to observe yourself!
My freedom is in God alone.
I’m having major deja vu. It’s wild. I’ve seen all this in dreams. It’s so quiet here. I love the first floor – I got rid of all the tvs from the main floor and there are two living rooms, one with a fireplace and another living room that is my own private space with french doors but I am going to make this room available for guests as a library with all my favorite books. It’s the best room in the house, sunny and bright, with huge windows overlooking a dam, a pond and 200 geese (what are they still doing here in November??)
The Holy Spirit moves me and God’s Voice directs me.
“Now I would guide myself no more. For I have neither made nor understood the way to find my freedom. But I trust in You.
But I trust in You.
“You Who endowed me with my freedom as your holy Son will not be lost to me. Your Voice directs me, and the way to You is opening and clear to me at last. Father, my freedom is in Your alone. Father, it is my will that I return.”
Today, we answer for the world, which will be freed along with us. How glad are we to find our freedom through the certain way our Father has established. And how sure is all the world’s salvation, when we learn our freedom can be found in God alone.”
I would love to hear from you about your favorite books so I can buy them for the new library. Right now I am thinking Tolstoy, Emerson, Thoreau, Kierkeegard, A Course in Miracles, Emmet Fox, Anne Lamott, Jerry and Esther Hicks, Carlos Castaneda, and Laurie Colwin’s cooking books.
I can probably fit 4 bookcases in here.
So please let me know your favorite books.
Facebook comments:
Lisa,
I have read the Shack and suggest it for your book room. It opens the way for people to believe that their is a loving God out there. It helped me in AA to find the God of my understanding, like how ACIM talks about God. My old God was a punishing, task master, just waiting for me to do something wrong. Now my understanding of God opens up…Jesus and the Holy Spirit too. ACIM is the first book that showed me what I’ve always believed to be tryue true….that God is only Love. The Shack opened a door for me to let go of those old beliefs.
Ditto Lisa….I read the Shack, and now have bought it for several friends to pass around…The Mastery is my favorite book now for several years, it is opened
each day to just read a chapter that always embraces my being! Wow Lisa, having
a Library is in MY dream as well!!!!Enjoy the quiet you have created~
Love to all~
debi
Hi Love,
It is the time when I have come to see that as people, places, and things fall away that there is my choice for seeing God constancy. I am amazed at what I have experienced and the world would see as loss.
Today I see God dependency…
It has brought immense freedom from all the feelings that held me in bondage for years, now is down to days.
This is what I prayed for.
It isn’t anything I thought it would look like.
Loss is impossible.
The gift of living undefended in God has brought me the Truth.
In God there is no need for it.
In God there is only love.
And my crap thoughts and feelings no longer make something real.
I get to choose again.
To my amazement even trying to go back and bring these people, places and things back into my life doesn’t work
AND I am thrilled.
If I have need of anything/one…God supplies it.
Lisa, you have turned my world upside down and I love it.
I once said to a friend that a movie I had seen took my mind and flung it out in the middle of the universe!!!!!!!
She said… Good, leave it there.
from out in the universe.
love,
gem
this looks like a great peaceful place to stay.
just stay warm..
love you.
Lisa,
I can definately relate to feeling restless, as this happened to me quite a bit. My mind was always searching for SOMETHING to do. If I wasn’t doing something, I labeled myself as “lazy”- especially after a weekend of staying home and doing nothing (ie: just BEING). Well, sometimes just being is what Holy Spirit Wills me. This past weekend was one of just being, and I feel totally recharged! In the past, I would have beat myself up for “not accomplishing anything”. Spending time with Him IS the greatest (and only) accomplishment we need. Sometimes it can seem difficult to get our minds into that mode, and away from seeking to constantly “do, do, do” and “go, go, go”.
That inn looks SO awesome! I’m really happy for you, Lisa. God Bless you – have an awesome day!