Hi Lisa
A few days ago you asked to hear from members how A Course in Miracles is affecting our life.
I took a few days to really think about this, because my life has changed so dramatically, I did not know how to express it.
When i first started studying ACIM, which was Aug. 2008, I thought ACIM was impossible for me to understand, yet I was drawn to keep on studying. I began reading your blogs as well as other blogs and books about ACIM.
Although all the things I was reading was somewhat helpful, it was only head knowledge.
This year when you invited me to join your study group as a Gorgeous for God member, I made a commitment that I was going to practice the lessons as best as I can.
My life is now changed, totally for the better.
Three years ago my house flooded, I became seriously ill, my husband asked for a divorce, I sold our home, went through a terrible divorce, had to move in with my daughter and her family, and then last Nov. my former husband (who I love) passed away at 50 yrs. of age.
With all the stresses one after another, I ended up in therapy for two years. For over two years i did not even know what happiness or joy meant. I felt emotionally dead.
When I started to study ACIM, I had hope that I would get better, yet I struggled with depression and just wanting to live.
Since I made the commitment to really practice the lessons this year, I feel reborn! It was a slow process (I know you say it is not a process, but that is the only way I can describe it). I slowly began to feel brief moments of happiness. When my former husband passed in Nov., he generously left me as beneficiary on some accounts he had. There was enough money to buy a small house for me and my dogs. In the past I had a brand new home, beautifully decorated with a large yard. Now I was looking for a house on a very limited budget because I am on a fixed income (disability). I was a little depressed when I first started house hunting. I was used to so much more house. I started praying daily and often. I asked the Holy Spirit to help me find a house I could afford and be happy with it. I looked at least 100 houses! three houses I really liked sold before I could make an offer. I just knew the HS would help me with the right house. I did not worry or get upset. I kept praying. Last week I bought a house that was much smaller than I wanted, but I knew it was what I could afford. I believe the HS directed me to this house. I am content that some time next month, my dogs and I will have our own place.
I realize I am rambling, but a year ago if I was trying to buy a house on a small amount of money, I would have been so depressed and miserable!
Now I put my trust in God that he will take care of me.You asked if I wanted help. Yes, but I am getting help. I have Jesus holding my hand, the Holy Spirit filtering my thoughts with love, the trust of my loving Father, and of course you Lisa!
I am taking each moment as it comes, so I am not waiting for anything to happen. It’s all good-whatever it is.
I told you that I am going to be happy for one week: no fault finding, judging others, complaining, etc. Now if a thought of complaining pops into my head, I forgive it and delete it! I have no desire to cling to that which makes me believe I am separate. Yes, at times I get a brief moment of insanity-but I immediately ask the HS to help me choose correctly.
I didn’t have to pray for a miracle, they are happening every day. My thinking is now devoted to God. I certainly have a lot of learning and continued practicing of lessons to do. Many times I forget to do the lessons as often as required, but I forgive myself and continue on with A Course in Miracles.
I have had so much help and I am so grateful. I never acknowledged gratitude in the past. Now I try and remember to always show gratitude and that eliminates complaining!
I believe I was called by Jesus to ACIM. I never heard of it before. My sister-in-law said she read an interesting book called ACIM and I might want to read it. She did not tell me anything about it. I just bought it and i was hooked! I was lead to a number of blogs and books that help explain ACIM in a way I can more easily comprehend.
When I saw the picture of the wedding rings on your blog today, telling God I DO, I closed my eyes and could feel a ring being slipped on my finger as I prayed to God and said I want what you have made me. I ask constantly to remember that I am not a body but Spirit, and I feel that I am remembering more and more each Holy Instant.
So thank you Lisa. You are a wonderful minister of God. I am happy you decided to help brothers such as myself apply the course instead of just reading it! You are a miracle!
I am so very happy that you are my teacher, because I am happy for the first time in many years. And best of all, I have no problems! When you think you might have a problem, just remember your brother and how much you are helping us to be present and be the light of the world. Thank you again for your honesty and love.
God Bless,
Linda
Linda,
Bless you for sharing your story, you are a true teacher of God!
Love,
Carol