I am not asked to make a sacrifice
To find the mercy and the peace of God.
You are complete because you are God’s Son.
As you were created, so you remain.
Something was brought to my attention yesterday that I was not aware of.
My friend said “I wish I had your enthusiasm and joy”.
This remark immediately set off bells and alarms in my head.
I was not aware that some of you guys are using me as the barometer for how “happy” and “awake” is supposed to look.
“Happy” looks different for everyone. There are 12 different rays and 16 combinations of personality types. So don’t try to be like someone else. Awakening only means you come to know yourself as God created you. It doesn’t mean you become the world’s version of “happy” and “holy”. It means only that you are perfectly… yourself.
I love you just the way you are.
For everyone’s information, I have always been happy, always – even when I was lost in depression and alcoholism I was still generally a happy person. Transformation did NOT add to me. It didn’t change me. I have always been friendly, passionate, and easily excited by people, pets and life in general. I was named “Most Outgoing” in my senior year of high school. I’ve always been Miss Congeniality.
If I showed you my photo albums from the time I was born, all you would see is smiles and laughter, surrounded by lots of friends and family, with me the center of attention.
Enthusiasm is my particular ray of energy. I have always been like this. My entire life I cheer people up and bring out the best in them. I don’t know why that is, but it’s how I’m built. According to the Myers-Briggs personality test (which I have taken 4 times over a 15 year span) I am ENFP – which is “The Inspirer”.
Enlightenment or Awakening or Transformation did not make me into a different personality – it simply undid all my false ideas about myself that I learned in the world.
So please do not attempt to be like me. Just be yourself. You’re awake. You’re whole and perfect.
All A Course in Miracles does is UNDO all your false ideas about yourself that you picked up/learned in time and space. It undoes fear and unworthiness and guilt. It takes away separation anxiety. The UNDOING doesn’t actually change you at all. It doesn’t make you into a different personality type.
If you have always been pensive or shy or quiet, the awakening only brings peace to that. It won’t change you into a sparkling bubbly outgoing enthusiastic person.
How does this go along with today’s lesson? You’re perfect as God created you. He created you exactly like Him, so sacrifice is impossible for you and for God. You’re not asked to make a sacrifice to find the mercy and the peace of God. You’re not asked to be different. You are asked only to give, as yourself, in the condition you find yourself … today.
YOU’RE AWAKE.
I get the impression that a lot of people are waiting to “wake up” so they can start giving but today’s lesson simply says: START GIVING.
“AND I TOO MUST GIVE.”
Today is all you have. Heaven is here and now. Why wait? Give, and then give some more to know the endless store of gifts that have been given to you.
My total apologies if you think you’re “not getting this” or if you think you are not awake because you have been trying to be like me and failing. I AM SORRY IF THERE HAS BEEN ANY CONFUSION. No one is like me, okay? And no one is like you. So just be yourself.
You have particular gifts that are unique to you alone.
YOU’RE PERFECT AS GOD CREATED YOU.
I know a person who is wide-awake and she has a major streak of sadness in her. She’s a quiet type and a bit somber. I don’t imagine that will ever change but she is so beautiful and giving. She is at peace. She is herself.
YOU ARE COMPLETE AND WHOLE AND PERFECT.
This is A Course in how to know yourself.
